sam sall
Existing?!
September 1st 2008 16:02
The zombie 2
Am I the person I want to be or the one supposed to be?
Is their a difference?
I'm because the way I am this way,
Or Am I the person I want to be?
Or the one who do things because I am good at it?
Am I THE PERSON I want to be or els?
Why is it so confusing?
Why it feels so hard to be? Why!
Is it because I'm not supposed to be me the way I am now?
Why everything is is so hard?
Should I try to be the self I think I want?
What bad can happen?
Loosing?!
I already lost myself.
Then oh my sole of mine why I'm afraid?!
Is it the fear of knowing…me?
What so bad about that ?
Why is it so difficult to find that I'm just a human with basic desire and human foolishness?
Why not to accept me...Mother
Why not to admit?
Why hiding behind the false image?
Or is facing my self is the most difficult?
Is me just holding me?
I'm very afraid of the truth?
Why and why?
When I can exist in me?
I just can't tell.
Am I the person I want to be or the one supposed to be?
Is their a difference?
I'm because the way I am this way,
Or Am I the person I want to be?
Or the one who do things because I am good at it?
Am I THE PERSON I want to be or els?
Why is it so confusing?
Why it feels so hard to be? Why!
Why everything is is so hard?
Should I try to be the self I think I want?
What bad can happen?
Loosing?!
I already lost myself.
Then oh my sole of mine why I'm afraid?!
Is it the fear of knowing…me?
What so bad about that ?
Why is it so difficult to find that I'm just a human with basic desire and human foolishness?
Why not to accept me...Mother
Why not to admit?
Why hiding behind the false image?
Or is facing my self is the most difficult?
Is me just holding me?
I'm very afraid of the truth?
Why and why?
When I can exist in me?
I just can't tell.
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Comment by sweetNovember
Sometimes, we choose a path (for a reason or another) and walk through it for a long time and then we take a pause and say 'I don't feel my self here', is this me?
But why did we choose it at the beginning!?,
May be we gave ourselves a delusional answer to believe that we can be satisfied and capable to keep pushing ourselves through that endless path.
We keep having those inside warning pulses as if we are whispering to ourselves to stop, reconsider and change.
Yes we are afraid of changing and loosing (Although we already lost the most important thing "our self satisfaction").
So we made ourselves believe that we are just fine and we don't need a change.
But the self changing urge will keep attending and visiting us from time to time in this life
Comment by sam sall
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it's true most of the times , it's all about false beleives, ignorance and forgiveness that keep us going....